What do I want?

I want to succeed in life and get a good job because that is what people expect of me, it is what they want. What do I want? To be honest, I kind of want to disappear and never be heard of again. Not in a "I want to die" way, but in a "I can't see a good future and I'm going to let down everybody who believes me in me, so I might as well disappear" type of way.