ADHD and Anxiety are a helluva combo
Right now I am feeling parlyzed with anxiety and executive functioning.
I have all these things I want to do and not motivation to do them. I feel exhausted by my excessive overthinking. It is easier to do nothing. Distract myself.
I have an appointment later. This is why I am struggling. If i start the thing i want to do now i have to stop the thing and leave for the apt.
First though i have to get ready. Also have to stop to deao with lunch for the kids. The starting and stopping is an issue. I get enthralled and focused.
When i get back...the enegy will be diminished. Other things like dinner and errands will have to be dealt with because i work all weekend.
I need help. Motivation. I dont know. I want to change my appointment but i have already rescheduled once.
Im a fucking mess. I hate myself right now. I didnt use to have these problems. I think i just never stopped long enough to deal with them and had coping mechanisms that worked for me because I was young and busy and didn't have the same responsiblities as I do now. Only me to worry about and now I can't worry about me at all. There is too much that needs to be reserved for others.
I have all these things I want to do and not motivation to do them. I feel exhausted by my excessive overthinking. It is easier to do nothing. Distract myself.
I have an appointment later. This is why I am struggling. If i start the thing i want to do now i have to stop the thing and leave for the apt.
First though i have to get ready. Also have to stop to deao with lunch for the kids. The starting and stopping is an issue. I get enthralled and focused.
When i get back...the enegy will be diminished. Other things like dinner and errands will have to be dealt with because i work all weekend.
I need help. Motivation. I dont know. I want to change my appointment but i have already rescheduled once.
Im a fucking mess. I hate myself right now. I didnt use to have these problems. I think i just never stopped long enough to deal with them and had coping mechanisms that worked for me because I was young and busy and didn't have the same responsiblities as I do now. Only me to worry about and now I can't worry about me at all. There is too much that needs to be reserved for others.
