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I almost threw away my ipad when I read your reply.. Those fears are killing mefrom inside.. And its worth 100 push ups to keep my smilly face at my workplace while battling or rather running away from those questions. I running away since last few months and I am on the verge of giving up because I dont know the answers.. i am unable to make any realistic solutions to those questions.. And most fearing is what do I want in my life..? What I want to be my identity? There is no answer.. I am very confused and disoriented.. I never used to drink but now sometime I drink beer just to avoid everything an sleep. Lonely? Yes very much lonely since my ex broke up with me ladt month. Occupied with the sadness of her.. My brain is unable to make any rational or realistic solution to anything personal or at work pless. My boss is unhappy and I dont know should I leave my job or wait fir my boss to fire me. I am in terrible condition right now.. Lonliness self identity personality work stress everything is messed up in a spaghetti state and I see no way out.

@FindRyhan: You are in a tough place. Take one step at a time. Be patient with you. When you can go for walks, swim, tennis, do movement that you enjoy. With alcohol, try to avoid and rather run/dance…..again move.
Then also forgive you and your GF for the end of the relationship. The love she stirred in you, is still in you, with pain added. When challenged at work, take deep breath, try to be still and not react to your boss when they push your buttons.
When alone try healing music on youtube, I use Vortex Success they have many types.
Quote for you:
It is an orderly universe, and the suffering that comes to us has a purpose in our lives-it is trying to teach us something. We should look for its lesson. Peace Pilgrim

The soul would have no rainbow, had the eyes no tears. John Vance Cheney