This year has been challenging.

Not just because of COVID- although that has absolutely sucked too! But because upon reflection, earlier on in the year my mental health was probably the worst it had ever been. I was experiencing panic attacks almost daily; i was struggling with feelings of worthlessness and pure hatred for myself due to the rapid deterioration of my relationship with my mother, and i absolutely HATED my job and felt my soul dying more and more each and every day that i was there. It sounds dramatic, but it was truly ruining me.

I haven’t been the best person. I’ve done things i’ve regretted. I’ve hurt people because i myself was hurting. But i identified this and realised i needed to make important changes, not only for myself but for others and i have. I sought help from a professional; i worked on my relationship with my mother (which is now better), and i scored myself my dream job-something i never thought was possible.

I did this. Through all the tears and the pain, and the negativity not only in my mind, but from others. I got through it.

I am PROUD of who i am and the person i have become. I am not perfect, but i am me. And i’m right where i’m meant to be.