I Have Something to Say

Everyday when I go to bed, I remember all the pains I cause with my stupid awkward comments I made in the past. I did not know I am saying something stupid which could offend/hurt someone. Untill next day when I see changed behavior of the person I offended and think about the things I said and then I realize my stupidity. No matter how successful I am in my academic career (junior scientist), I could not improvise my social skills. I don't know how to be smart with girls, how to impress, how to say what sentence at which time. I am like one of those nerd scientists you see in the movies working in the lab with no main roles. No past relationship with girl worked out for me. "Looks like our wavefuction overlap too much, its a good formation probablity" -this is my complement to girls, and this type of geeky lines doesnt hit girls (unless she is also a physics nerd, even then she would expect a complement like normal guy makes). I really wonder why God kept me alive so far. Could have made the earth with one less stupid person.