I Have Something to Say

My truth....
I invested my life in him and his promises.... I gave him everything I had. He broke me down....making me build myself back up alone. For years he dulled my light and I was ashamed of who I was. I would beg him to love me. He would blame me for him not being able to give me his affection. I was in a very bad place when I loved him. Suicide often felt like the only way out. But my love for my kids always pulled the knife away. He would call me crazy... and a drama queen.... he would be little my suffering.
I can't love that.... ever again... it still hurts enough to make me cry.