I Have Something to Say

I don't know why it all changed, or why I can't just accept it and let go. I don't know exactly when you stopped looking at me and smiling the way you used to, or when I was replaced by a phone.

It seems like an eternity since we touched or just talked and laughed together. I miss my friend, and you're sitting right here.

I'm so tired of living with ghosts of what used to be, of saying someday I will bring you back, and waiting for a day that never comes.

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Bleedingheart11 · 46-50, F

When I was still married to my ex husband, I came to the realization that we just didn’t make each other happy anymore. And that by staying together, we were preventing one another from ever finding happiness with someone else. We both had a void that the other wasn’t filling anymore. And as long as we were together, no one else could fill it either. I’m sure this isn’t the perspective you were looking for, but it’s all I have.
I wish you the best of luck.

RemovedUsername329422 · 51-55, M

@Bleedingheart11: Out of curiosity, how/ why were you & your husband no longer able to make each other happy? Did HE change? Did YOU change? Did y’all no longer have the same goals? Did something actually HAPPEN? Or did you or him simply “fall OUT of Love”? I’m curious about that. My wife & I have been separated for over 10 months. And, based on her comments, I’m wondering not only IF she STILL loves me, but whether she EVER DID love me?? So, I’m curious as to HOW one gets to that point of not being able to make their spouse happy? That the love is no longer there?? I would appreciate any insight that you could give me. Thanks.

Bleedingheart11 · 46-50, F

I really can’t say that there was any one particular incident that changed everything. It was more like a wedge that was so slowly dividing us, that it took years before I even noticed it. And when I finally did notice it, it was too late. There was no communication between us. He was an emotional void. In the end, he told me that he couldn’t understand why I wanted a divorce. After all, he had bought and given me everything a girl could possibly want. I said, yes, you’ve given me everything material that a girl could want. But what I needed from you wasn’t material. And you couldn’t give me what I need. You can message me if you’d like and I’ll try to explain it better. @RemovedUsername329422