I Have Something to Say

I don't know why it all changed, or why I can't just accept it and let go. I don't know exactly when you stopped looking at me and smiling the way you used to, or when I was replaced by a phone.

It seems like an eternity since we touched or just talked and laughed together. I miss my friend, and you're sitting right here.

I'm so tired of living with ghosts of what used to be, of saying someday I will bring you back, and waiting for a day that never comes.

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RemovedUsername329422 · 51-55, M

I hate to hear that. I know that must be painful. But, honestly, it could be worse. I’d give just about anything for my wife to be back in the same house as me, even if she were constantly on her phone. But I’m so sorry to hear that you’re hurting. Wish I could give you some kind words to lift your spirits. All I can say is hang in there & try to “turn the corner” tomorrow. Good luck.

PrivateHell · M

@RemovedUsername329422 thanks.

SW-User

@RemovedUsername329422 why did she leave?

RemovedUsername329422 · 51-55, M

@SW-User: Haha. I wish I knew. It would be easier to say what it wasn’t. But, I guess it all boils down to communication. She was a bit ADD, and I was a bit OCD (NOT like controlling or debilitating OCD). But, it seems she’s not coming back. Sadly.

PrivateHell · M

@RemovedUsername329422 sorry to hear that.

RemovedUsername329422 · 51-55, M

@PrivateHell: Thanks. But (as they say) it is what it IS. Would do almost anything for her to come back. Been over 10 months. Told me yesterday that she’s put in a bid on a house. When she first left, she was staying with her mother. The last 3 months she’s been renting a house. Now she’s trying to BUY a house. Guess there’s no coming back now. Seems like things have just “slipped away”. Crazy thing is that we almost got back together in late July. Well, that’s what she says NOW at least!?!? Who knows if it was real??

PrivateHell · M

@RemovedUsername329422 that's messed up.

RemovedUsername329422 · 51-55, M

@PrivateHell: All I can say to you is this. If you truly LOVE HER, then do something to reverse the trend. Take her on an actual “date”. Go on a romantic vacation. Make sure that she knows (and I mean KNOWS down to her core) that you LOVE HER & want to spend the rest of your life with her. And here’s the tricky part. Try to steer her away from the downward spiral in a NONACCUSATORY manner. If she thinks that you’re placing ANY “blame” on her?? It will NOT turn out good. NOT AT ALL. But, please see what you can do to ease her back into being “engaged” in the relationship. Do NOT wait until it’s too late & she’s about to walk out the door. Good luck. I wish you all the BEST.