I Have Something to Say

Mind ..
Stuck in a swirling circle..
Chained to its own veins..
as it twirls in its own long forgotten memories..
It gets struck by the bittersweet ones of yours..
Something I once called my own..
The same thing that now makes me feel like I’m so alone..
I set my heart to unchain my mind from its misery..
Like it always does, it gets sucked in with it..
Dragging me down again..
Drowning in those memories again..
Scenarios my mind makes up to help me get over them..
For a moment I catch myself smiling somehow ..
yet it doesn’t take long for my eyes to cry..
My hands help my soul from drowning, the moment I lift them high as I ask god to help me again..
I ask my lord to help me contain this pain ..
For me to be strong ..
For me not to hold one string of my mind ..
And lose myself in its spiral..