I Have Something to Say
"Conflict-ions"
A long time ago, I had experienced an emotion that is felt rarely amongst those who have lived full-lives. Love. Connection that transpired oceans and large land mass. That propelled beyond time and space.
It was so right. Yet so wrong.
These conflictions, making lies into non-fiction
needs interdictions to pause my dream-like predictions
I don't want to just palm read but would want her to listen
This is my mission
To let go, down the river I flow,
no anchor to ground or paddle to row,
Now I know this may be confusing, a little amusing
to those that never had their mind losing
space because you are forever choosing
whether should have stayed or go,
the mentality musing while the body does some carousing
but the heart is attempting to do some deducing
It is not Elementary nor common sense
to release that which seemed Heaven sent
but was a life-altering blissful catastrophic event
But knowing whether she'll be advent or not
is twisting my feelings into a knot
is our love line still taut
It is what I worry about
Seriously, its been a year and a half since we split and I have been dreaming about her more than ever. I do not know if it is because I am in a relationship right now (and the lady I am with has been more reciprocative and chill, but not as open-mentally[she an extrovert while I am an introvert]) or it is just my mind and emotions still processing all the things I have gone through and should continue to move on.
Some days, it is like I am glad we had our experience and now to build up with myself what I have learned.
On other days, it feels like I have to do what I can to have meeting up with her a possibility (in her country, with her knowledge of course).
Emotions, man. What a thing.
A long time ago, I had experienced an emotion that is felt rarely amongst those who have lived full-lives. Love. Connection that transpired oceans and large land mass. That propelled beyond time and space.
It was so right. Yet so wrong.
These conflictions, making lies into non-fiction
needs interdictions to pause my dream-like predictions
I don't want to just palm read but would want her to listen
This is my mission
To let go, down the river I flow,
no anchor to ground or paddle to row,
Now I know this may be confusing, a little amusing
to those that never had their mind losing
space because you are forever choosing
whether should have stayed or go,
the mentality musing while the body does some carousing
but the heart is attempting to do some deducing
It is not Elementary nor common sense
to release that which seemed Heaven sent
but was a life-altering blissful catastrophic event
But knowing whether she'll be advent or not
is twisting my feelings into a knot
is our love line still taut
It is what I worry about
Seriously, its been a year and a half since we split and I have been dreaming about her more than ever. I do not know if it is because I am in a relationship right now (and the lady I am with has been more reciprocative and chill, but not as open-mentally[she an extrovert while I am an introvert]) or it is just my mind and emotions still processing all the things I have gone through and should continue to move on.
Some days, it is like I am glad we had our experience and now to build up with myself what I have learned.
On other days, it feels like I have to do what I can to have meeting up with her a possibility (in her country, with her knowledge of course).
Emotions, man. What a thing.
36-40, M
