I Have Something to Say
I don't know who talk to at this point, I can't talk to my friends because they'll never believe me, can't talk to my parents because it's about them and I need to get this off of my chest.
So I am an Asian American with parents who have immigrated from Asia. Culturally speaking I'm about as American you can get, I was raised in the south and very conservative but not close minded. And my parents are traditional as you can get. Well all throughout my life I've listened to them and did what i was told, until around high school I started slacking a bit and doing some other stuff and actually started going to social gatherings. And I'm already 18 and about to go to college and my parents are still harassing me in everything that I do. The reason why I'm actually thinking about this is because they don't want me to go to a party with my friends just before everyone is about to go their separate ways and it really has me thinking if my parents are actually doing the best for me. Because looking back they've held me back in some areas in my life that I wish I was able to do but I couldn't. Like I couldn't play football even though I love football and I planned to join the military as they would've taken care of my college tuition and I would've gone to a college that was 3 hours away and because I love America. But in both those cases I think they've held me back for their selfish reasons and they don't want me to learn new experiences besides anything from the classroom. And they constantly tell me that I'm stupid even though I have grades that are good enough to be accepted to all major universities that I applied to and one very prestigious school. Like what kind of parent does that? And now I'm stuck in a university that wasn't even my choice that's only 30 minutes away. And now that's class about to start it's really eating away at me. But in closing I just need some advice. I've tried to compromise my parents culture with American culture and live a middle ground life but my parents are unwilling to accept it and I don't think I can deal with it. I need some advice if you've made it this far. I'm just so confused and downright resentful at the moment.
So I am an Asian American with parents who have immigrated from Asia. Culturally speaking I'm about as American you can get, I was raised in the south and very conservative but not close minded. And my parents are traditional as you can get. Well all throughout my life I've listened to them and did what i was told, until around high school I started slacking a bit and doing some other stuff and actually started going to social gatherings. And I'm already 18 and about to go to college and my parents are still harassing me in everything that I do. The reason why I'm actually thinking about this is because they don't want me to go to a party with my friends just before everyone is about to go their separate ways and it really has me thinking if my parents are actually doing the best for me. Because looking back they've held me back in some areas in my life that I wish I was able to do but I couldn't. Like I couldn't play football even though I love football and I planned to join the military as they would've taken care of my college tuition and I would've gone to a college that was 3 hours away and because I love America. But in both those cases I think they've held me back for their selfish reasons and they don't want me to learn new experiences besides anything from the classroom. And they constantly tell me that I'm stupid even though I have grades that are good enough to be accepted to all major universities that I applied to and one very prestigious school. Like what kind of parent does that? And now I'm stuck in a university that wasn't even my choice that's only 30 minutes away. And now that's class about to start it's really eating away at me. But in closing I just need some advice. I've tried to compromise my parents culture with American culture and live a middle ground life but my parents are unwilling to accept it and I don't think I can deal with it. I need some advice if you've made it this far. I'm just so confused and downright resentful at the moment.
26-30, M
