I Have Something to Say
Two years back when I was so brokenhearted I wrote a poem. Reading it today, I learned that when we feel so much pain we tend to become great deceivers of ourselves. We tend to be blinded of the situation and fabricate that reality.Below is the poem full of hatred.I'm glad that I'm realizing now that not all conveyed in the poem speaks of the reality.
TO LOVE THAT IS NOT LOVE
Love is not a magical thing
For in loving there is so much hurting
Only fool will tell that love conquers all.
For if it is, you’ve forgotten ego
For if it is,my pride ceased to exist
Love paralyzed those who are unfortunate to get hit by it.
It stops you from enjoying momentous events.
You’ll be stuck in wilderness.
Love kills your whole being
You forget where you started
You don't know where you are headed
It seems that effortless longing does not have an end
Loving is never easy
For if it is, I would not be entangled
Love tears your heart apart
Yes, until there’s nothing left of you
Squandering all the invested emotions
In love there is so much pretension
Everything seems so unreal
Negative reality devoid of happiness
Beware! leaving reality will cause you so much trouble and so much of
I’m in search for the exit door
I could not find it
I don’t want to find it
For I may never experience this again
Yet I don’t want to be in this situation anymore
If only I can turn back time
I could have told you that
Yes, you can court me
But the thing is I’m not quite sure if you’re asking for real
I hate to say that to love is not love
For if it is I’m not put into this empty situation
To love is not love because you got no balls to stand up for me
Or should I say, you really never loved me
Poor me I was trapped to a love that is not love
TO LOVE THAT IS NOT LOVE
Love is not a magical thing
For in loving there is so much hurting
Only fool will tell that love conquers all.
For if it is, you’ve forgotten ego
For if it is,my pride ceased to exist
Love paralyzed those who are unfortunate to get hit by it.
It stops you from enjoying momentous events.
You’ll be stuck in wilderness.
Love kills your whole being
You forget where you started
You don't know where you are headed
It seems that effortless longing does not have an end
Loving is never easy
For if it is, I would not be entangled
Love tears your heart apart
Yes, until there’s nothing left of you
Squandering all the invested emotions
In love there is so much pretension
Everything seems so unreal
Negative reality devoid of happiness
Beware! leaving reality will cause you so much trouble and so much of
I’m in search for the exit door
I could not find it
I don’t want to find it
For I may never experience this again
Yet I don’t want to be in this situation anymore
If only I can turn back time
I could have told you that
Yes, you can court me
But the thing is I’m not quite sure if you’re asking for real
I hate to say that to love is not love
For if it is I’m not put into this empty situation
To love is not love because you got no balls to stand up for me
Or should I say, you really never loved me
Poor me I was trapped to a love that is not love
31-35, F
