I Have Something to Say
Today ,I feel unhappy
I could pretend otherwise
But, it just isn't true
I don't ask for much
But, still, I wish I knew why it is when you are sad you get scolded?
People act like you can help it but won't.
I wish people understood better, however, if they did they might have to experience depression and its lies and I wish that on no one.
I wish other things to be made clear as well, but they never can or will be made known.
Why he turned against me and mocked me in such a cruel way.
Why the friendship wasn't as important to him as it had been to me.
Why I am such a solitary person who sometimes hates that about myself.
So many whys I would go mad listing them all out or thinking about them all.
This is not my everyday face.
I do not feel this way every day of my life.
But, today, I do.
I can deny it or it acknowledge it.
When I deny it, then it bangs on the door until I feel guilty and open it.
Then the guilt eats away at me and I join the choir of "You should not feel that way"
Which makes me feel even worse.
But, I will open the door myself before guilt can enter and acknowledge the sadness.
I won't feel guilty, because I did not chose depression.
This is the only way I have found that actually helps me cope and makes me recover quicker.
Today,I will accept it and tomorrow I will get up and carry on.
I could pretend otherwise
But, it just isn't true
I don't ask for much
But, still, I wish I knew why it is when you are sad you get scolded?
People act like you can help it but won't.
I wish people understood better, however, if they did they might have to experience depression and its lies and I wish that on no one.
I wish other things to be made clear as well, but they never can or will be made known.
Why he turned against me and mocked me in such a cruel way.
Why the friendship wasn't as important to him as it had been to me.
Why I am such a solitary person who sometimes hates that about myself.
So many whys I would go mad listing them all out or thinking about them all.
This is not my everyday face.
I do not feel this way every day of my life.
But, today, I do.
I can deny it or it acknowledge it.
When I deny it, then it bangs on the door until I feel guilty and open it.
Then the guilt eats away at me and I join the choir of "You should not feel that way"
Which makes me feel even worse.
But, I will open the door myself before guilt can enter and acknowledge the sadness.
I won't feel guilty, because I did not chose depression.
This is the only way I have found that actually helps me cope and makes me recover quicker.
Today,I will accept it and tomorrow I will get up and carry on.
