I Have Something to Say
Now you see my life.
This is my 100th post in Experience Project and I felt like it was time to reveal my origins, also known as my childhood through early age, to teenager years and today. I never told most people but today is time to reveal my story and how I became to become how- and who- I am today.
I was born in the city of Japan called Nara in December 10th, 1996. Nara is a very cultural city in Japan in a region known as the Kansai region. If I have done my information correctly, my mother was named Uta Kyoko Evans (うた恭子エバンス) as my father was named Xing Jie Evans (興傑エバンス). I have no information on their original last names but those were the "American culture" names that they apparently decide to use. My name is Destrey Kohana Evans. Unfortunately, I have no legit memory of my birth-years but I do know I was raised in a city named Hyōgo (prefecture) , which is still around the Kansai region. By the age of 2, my family were went to a city in Oregon named Lake Oswego in The United States. Issues occurred with my family and myself, knowingly I apparently became a distraction due to their heavy working and my father's alcoholic abuse. Once i turned 3, my mother and father decided to put me up in a foster care home. This was when I was sent halfway through the country of the U.S. into a city in Florida (which that is going to be private).
During this time, I was getting use to feelings and communication. I was those kids who were seen as an outcast and an awkward little kid that was an easy target for bullies. I was barely bullied in the foster care home, due to the fact we all suffered the same, depressing, and agony faith. Once I begun school, I was always eager to learn and to have a good future. I was always thinking, "Wow, one day, I'll have a parent!" which would lead me to begin writing lyrics, poems, and draw. Heres a sample of my early poem when I was 8: "Day by night, night by day, love yourself, but not the bad." I would write constantly and constantly until I was 12, where I began my gateway of rock. I was introduced to Marilyn Manson with his song "In The Shadows of The Valley of Death" in his Holywood (In The Shadows of The Valley of Death) era. I was exposed to rock and roll by Manson, who is also my biggest inspiration. The passion he had in this song made me grow into him and into ways of rock. Rock icons like System of A Down, Ozzy Osbourne, Iron Maiden, Sla<x>yer, Avenged Sevenfold, and many more! I was heavily influenced with many of these musicians/bands in my pre-teen age. This is where my depression begins.
By the age of 13, I suffered constant bullying and many abuse by other kids. I grew heavily depressed due to these actions that it lead me to lock myself in my room or go into the train-tracks to be alone. I stopped the things I loved: video games, drawing, lyrics... The care-takers in the care home would take me to the doctors, where I was given depression pills to "cure" me. This, however, wasn't affective. This lead me to become suicidal... As heavy that sounds, it is true. Drowning, hanging, lack of blood, jumping off a roof, I did as much pain to myself to create a vortex in my life to end it. I was sent in the hospital multiple times, 3 of them were serious concerns, to stop my insanity. These actions, the bullying and suicide attempts, keep happening until I was 15, where I picked up the Satanist Lavey bible. I was so... dumbfounded by this bible. I began my research to realize that people idolize the "evil" other religions were into. I then connected back towards Marilyn Manson and discovered his album, Antichrist Superstar. I grew madly in love by his concept of a revolution. This lead to me meet up a special person in my life, Eric (Username: ImAMechanicalAnimal). He introduced me to a new world, that he showed me the evil side is brighter... Along him, a friend named Crystal showed me the bad side of the good... I begun to question my faith and my belief- basically my world. I became Satanist Lavey and began to return to my roots as a lyrical artist once more. I begun a small project band with a group of friends, Perfectly Imperfect, as I play front man and lyric artist.
As my life began to except the depression, it came into the "light" and I began to tell people who have depression that there is a way out. By 16, I decided to help out other people who grew similar problems as me and I decided to help them out by talks and motivational speeches.
There you have it, now you see my life, and it looks perfectly imperfect. <3
This is my 100th post in Experience Project and I felt like it was time to reveal my origins, also known as my childhood through early age, to teenager years and today. I never told most people but today is time to reveal my story and how I became to become how- and who- I am today.
I was born in the city of Japan called Nara in December 10th, 1996. Nara is a very cultural city in Japan in a region known as the Kansai region. If I have done my information correctly, my mother was named Uta Kyoko Evans (うた恭子エバンス) as my father was named Xing Jie Evans (興傑エバンス). I have no information on their original last names but those were the "American culture" names that they apparently decide to use. My name is Destrey Kohana Evans. Unfortunately, I have no legit memory of my birth-years but I do know I was raised in a city named Hyōgo (prefecture) , which is still around the Kansai region. By the age of 2, my family were went to a city in Oregon named Lake Oswego in The United States. Issues occurred with my family and myself, knowingly I apparently became a distraction due to their heavy working and my father's alcoholic abuse. Once i turned 3, my mother and father decided to put me up in a foster care home. This was when I was sent halfway through the country of the U.S. into a city in Florida (which that is going to be private).
During this time, I was getting use to feelings and communication. I was those kids who were seen as an outcast and an awkward little kid that was an easy target for bullies. I was barely bullied in the foster care home, due to the fact we all suffered the same, depressing, and agony faith. Once I begun school, I was always eager to learn and to have a good future. I was always thinking, "Wow, one day, I'll have a parent!" which would lead me to begin writing lyrics, poems, and draw. Heres a sample of my early poem when I was 8: "Day by night, night by day, love yourself, but not the bad." I would write constantly and constantly until I was 12, where I began my gateway of rock. I was introduced to Marilyn Manson with his song "In The Shadows of The Valley of Death" in his Holywood (In The Shadows of The Valley of Death) era. I was exposed to rock and roll by Manson, who is also my biggest inspiration. The passion he had in this song made me grow into him and into ways of rock. Rock icons like System of A Down, Ozzy Osbourne, Iron Maiden, Sla<x>yer, Avenged Sevenfold, and many more! I was heavily influenced with many of these musicians/bands in my pre-teen age. This is where my depression begins.
By the age of 13, I suffered constant bullying and many abuse by other kids. I grew heavily depressed due to these actions that it lead me to lock myself in my room or go into the train-tracks to be alone. I stopped the things I loved: video games, drawing, lyrics... The care-takers in the care home would take me to the doctors, where I was given depression pills to "cure" me. This, however, wasn't affective. This lead me to become suicidal... As heavy that sounds, it is true. Drowning, hanging, lack of blood, jumping off a roof, I did as much pain to myself to create a vortex in my life to end it. I was sent in the hospital multiple times, 3 of them were serious concerns, to stop my insanity. These actions, the bullying and suicide attempts, keep happening until I was 15, where I picked up the Satanist Lavey bible. I was so... dumbfounded by this bible. I began my research to realize that people idolize the "evil" other religions were into. I then connected back towards Marilyn Manson and discovered his album, Antichrist Superstar. I grew madly in love by his concept of a revolution. This lead to me meet up a special person in my life, Eric (Username: ImAMechanicalAnimal). He introduced me to a new world, that he showed me the evil side is brighter... Along him, a friend named Crystal showed me the bad side of the good... I begun to question my faith and my belief- basically my world. I became Satanist Lavey and began to return to my roots as a lyrical artist once more. I begun a small project band with a group of friends, Perfectly Imperfect, as I play front man and lyric artist.
As my life began to except the depression, it came into the "light" and I began to tell people who have depression that there is a way out. By 16, I decided to help out other people who grew similar problems as me and I decided to help them out by talks and motivational speeches.
There you have it, now you see my life, and it looks perfectly imperfect. <3
22-25, M
