I gotta let a lot go.

People, places, dreams, even the sum of my hard work and dedication.

Not because they aren't worth it, but because I can't do anymore. I'm tapped out. I'm done caring for people, done trying to find home, done with crap dumped on me when I tried so hard. It was all in hopes for mutual benefit, but I'm the one that ended up depleted.

I chose to give of myself. Now I choose to let people be and let myself rest.

There are meaningful bits and pieces that I remain dedicated to, and I'll be cool to people. But nobody is getting anything out of me again. Not love, not time, not money, not effort. I'm worth effort too and if nobody sees or cares, fuck it.

I'm sensitive and I can't make it in this selfish world like I should be able to. Getting punished and outted for caring 😂 fuck this.

Top | New | Old

This comment is hidden. Show Comment

Boeing · 36-40

@Achelois Similarly here, the moment I begun focusing on myself more, and giving less -and I still give!, just, less- I begun to unfurl and slowly blossoming 🌸

ScreamingFox · 41-45, F

@Achelois I've been enormously overwhelmed by what I've been going through lately and in so much fibromyalgia pain from stress. All trying to do the right thing for others while not caring for myself. It's the same thing that has happened to me over and over my whole life.

I suffer for others and I quit. Not one soul besides my mom cared about me and she's gone.

If I'm all I have then I can only show up for myself.

Now I'm selfish like everyone else. I will never quite be okay with that, but I have to make peace with it.

I'm a mother and that's all I'll ever be. Life is pointless otherwise. Whatever 🖤

Achelois · F

@ScreamingFox

I understand, I’m going through the same thing and I’m the selfish one, I’ve been accused of being bitter and angry for pulling back my energy.
I’m just done with getting nothing back and now they gas light and lie about me for standing up for myself.

You have to put yourself first, I didn’t for most of my life and now I’m not doing it anymore, people show their true colours when you stop giving all the time.

Add a comment...