Presently? Not great.
I lost a BUNCH of weight from 2017-2020 via fasting and exercise and for the first time in my adulthood didn't hate my body, actually for the first time in life felt attractive which motivated me to keep making good choices.
In 2022 I had a couple foot surgeries back to back. I wasnt able to walk for a few months and then many months of slow progress rehab. With the pain meds/vitamins I couldnt fast and ended up putting half of what I lost back on.
In Dec 2023 I almost died from Influenza, was hospitalized/bed ridden for a week then on steroids which gave me more weight. Midsummer 2024 I had another bad respiratory illness with more steroids and more weight.
I'm mad at my body and myself for my poor choices, and just can't muster the same drive, discipline or healthy body/mindset I did back in 2017.
