Do you ever feel wasted on others? Like you aren't seen as a complete person?

You value yourself, but other people assume the worst of you, so everything good about you is tossed aside...

You think you're safe to exist as you, but it just doesn't work.

Top | New | Old

ostfuidctyvm

I've rarely ever felt particularly valuable to anyone else but me. I'm comfortable within my bubble but out in the world I feel like a non entity. I kind of lean into it and prefer to be invisible. I removed myself from friends and I just exist off the radar as much as possible.

I don't know what the answer is to this. I think that it's about me more than anyone else. I believe that my psychology has resulted in my outcomes for the most part. I've had some bad experiences, sure, but the demons are mine.

I don't know if that makes sense.

ScreamingFox · 41-45, F

@ostfuidctyvm it makes a lot of sense to me.

But I do wonder if people could be a bit less presumptuous and more curious, if they took any care to understand, it might be just a slight bit better to exist in this world.

I embrace it now too, but it still hurts at times, not because of who I am, because I see so much possibility. I can't break myself of that optimism.

Magenta · F

Yes, I felt that. Treating you as less than human. It's a very degrading feeling, especially when you cared deeply about them. And I'm not the only one to receive it. It's selfish to say the very least.

LunadelobosIAMTHEDRAGON · F

Most of my life, actually.

They will take and destroy and blame you all at once. They used to crush me but I don't deal with them if I can avoid it.

💯relatable.

Blondily · F

Yes, misunderstood

HijabaDabbaDoo · F

With some people, yes but I won't waste any more energy on them especially if they've already made their mind up

ScreamingFox · 41-45, F

@HijabaDabbaDoo it's hard for me to stop valuing people even if we disagree. It's not a deal breaker for me, but an opportunity to learn and grow and connect.

I don't understand why my brain won't let go. I don't know if it's optimism, stupidity, stubborn trauma trapped in my brain, occasional loneliness or something else or all of it.

I don't want to give up. Even if it's hard for me to connect, I don't understand giving up on each other when good intentions are involved. I don't understand needing to meet others needs to be of any importance to them because I don't require any of my needs met to value others...

I don't understand.

HumanEarth · F

All the time

Like specially around certain parts of my family.

ScreamingFox · 41-45, F

@HumanEarth I don't deal with my family at all because of that. They will take and destroy and blame you all at once. They used to crush me but I don't deal with them if I can avoid it.

HumanEarth · F

Exactly

Add a comment...