One of my biggest fears about being in a relationship again (with a man)...

Is that I'll fall in love and then gain 10lbs or get a few wrinkles on my face or something men don't like... and he'll become unattracted and embarrassed to be with me.

I'm afraid I'll be left alone because I'll believe in someone and they'll ditch me once I'm not the perfect woman they imagined.

He'll lie to me for a year or longer about how he still thinks I'm beautiful. He won't be able to get his d!CK up unless he's thinking about some inflatable Instagram model who's photos he likes knowing I'll never know because I don't have social media.

Then he'll spring it on me one day. Or lie and cause conflict in other ways to avoid being honest about how shallow he is.

I will have wasted my precious life and loyalty on limp d!CK and fake love.

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SlippingAway · 46-50, F

That's a fear I can relate to very much, as I get older but the right person won't be superficial and will see below the surface. I wouldn't lose interest in someone for those reasons, so I hope that there are others out there like that too. Unfortunately love takes vulnerability and that's hard AF when you've been burned and made to feel less than.

ScreamingFox · 41-45, F

@SlippingAway The hardest part is knowing the love we're capable of, yet having to be afraid that loyalty won't be reciprocated.

SlippingAway · 46-50, F

@ScreamingFox I've wasted so much of my life thinking I wasn't good enough for people, when I should have been questioning if they were good enough for me as well. Any one who would drop you for those reasons aren't worthy of you!