One of my biggest fears about being in a relationship again (with a man)...

Is that I'll fall in love and then gain 10lbs or get a few wrinkles on my face or something men don't like... and he'll become unattracted and embarrassed to be with me.

I'm afraid I'll be left alone because I'll believe in someone and they'll ditch me once I'm not the perfect woman they imagined.

He'll lie to me for a year or longer about how he still thinks I'm beautiful. He won't be able to get his d!CK up unless he's thinking about some inflatable Instagram model who's photos he likes knowing I'll never know because I don't have social media.

Then he'll spring it on me one day. Or lie and cause conflict in other ways to avoid being honest about how shallow he is.

I will have wasted my precious life and loyalty on limp d!CK and fake love.