People who are prone to addictions of any kind, what keeps you going knowing there are grave consequences in what you do?

The fact that it's my sole strategy for so many of my needs and my body is used to it and it's been what I've turned to in order to survive so it has a very self soothing familiar effect too.

To realize I can't just stop over night is the first step of growth. It's more likely that I will relapse for the rest of my life, but, the goal isn't to stop the goal is to prevent starting and if it still happens, cope with the consequences with self compassion instead of guilt and shame.