I Have a Question
Display of affection: I am very bad at. I don't remember if I ever hugged my mom or dad since my memories go back childhood. Here in holland I have some Italian colleague, they are hug prone. They have hugged me couple of time and I feel its really great. It makes me feel good and loved. But here comes the problem. I really cant decide should I hug or not. Even if I want to, i take too much time deciding and the moment passes.
Similarly I tried dating a dutch girl. Even on 4th time of meeting for a dinner I did not hold her hands or sit next to her or make any move, I could not decide, should I do it now? Does she wants it? What if she doesn't want it or like it? Is it right time.. Too many questions in my mind and then awkward staring at each other and then she rides her train/bus and I come back home. We did not see each other again. Clearly I need to work on my side. Why its so difficult for me to express affection phyisically. Why I cant ? How do I know when is right moment and I can kiss her or put my arms around her neck. I am so dumb 😞
Similarly I tried dating a dutch girl. Even on 4th time of meeting for a dinner I did not hold her hands or sit next to her or make any move, I could not decide, should I do it now? Does she wants it? What if she doesn't want it or like it? Is it right time.. Too many questions in my mind and then awkward staring at each other and then she rides her train/bus and I come back home. We did not see each other again. Clearly I need to work on my side. Why its so difficult for me to express affection phyisically. Why I cant ? How do I know when is right moment and I can kiss her or put my arms around her neck. I am so dumb 😞
36-40, M
