Have you ever felt truly loved and wanted?

i can honestly say that with my hands up no and being honest im 35 now and after going through so much on my own basically i'm not looking for it no more cause when you look for it , it has the oppisite effect . i swear to god on that . it nearly destroyed me when i searched for it and basically i noticed the noise in my head looking to seach for it i noticed it most when i was my own . Today i know now there my imperfections and that takes a lot of pain to get to a stage where you actually can think good of yourself . It says that in bible about the spirit , it talks about what the spirit doesnt need the spirit actually craves and it's says that were all the pain comes from . It says that when your in the pain the 1st thing too do is ignore it but they say its the making of the spirit