I Have a Question

Go away anxiety... You're not even a person, I shouldn't have to beg you to leave me. Some people think it's weird, you're told to 'stop worrying' 'be happy'. How about they try living with it, I don't want this. It hurts me and I try so hard to be strong, some days I just want to breakdown but I wont let it win. I'm not weak, I'm known to be strong. I apologise to anybody who's seen so many posts like this but I just feel that being open about yourself in such a kind friendly community like this is really partly what it's here for. Anybody who suffers, just know you're not alone. I know what it's like to really want to talk but you're afraid you'll annoy that person or make them angry. Afraid of others emotions, always fearing the worst, negativity. Sometimes I look at confident, happy people and I just wish this would leave me and others some day. I've gained so much confidence now but it hurts inside that I had to force myself. It's killing me inside. One day it will go, holding onto the last bit of hope :)