Honestly, I believe you know the answer and eventually what the outcome is going to be, without a doubt. I also believe the real issue you are facing is much deeper than this ex lover. Perhaps a self destructive or relationship destructive angle that you cannot come to grips in resolving so looking for that bomb to drop to move things forward. In al respect, I do not know you so am not judging. I have this incredible sixth sense and that’s my first impression. I’m not hearing much remorse or regrets.
