I'll Keep Your Secret

I talked to her again today. She talked about her boyfriend.
It tears me apart.
I can't tell her about my feelings for her; it would confuse her and she doesn't need that in her life. She already has too much going, which is why she's confiding in me. I provide her emotional refuge.
Whenever she talks about him I get choked up inside; I have to take short breaths in order to keep it together. She needs someone who will listen to her and I'm happy it's me. It's the only way I get to be near her.
Eventually she won't need me anymore; after all she has him.
I hate this but I have to do this for her.

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PixieKitten

You should tell her how you feel , if she was your true friend and she cares for you - she wouldn't want you to feel that way.

SW-User

I did and it didn't end well. If you want to find out what happened you'll see the story. But if you want I can simply tell you.

PixieKitten

@islandalone: oh , Sorry it didn't end well. That must of hurt.

Yes , you can just tell me..

SW-User

@Pixydust: I broke down and confessed my feelings to her about her.
Even though this happened five months ago I can still see her face. It was as though I had killed her pet or burned her house down. Her lower lip was quivering as she kept saying "please don't do this to me"
I felt - still do - like a monster. A greedy self serving monster.

Thanks for listening.