Is it crazy to lay out all of my deceased pets pawprints to speak to them?

I have their prints from the veterinarian office going back to as far as 2009. From even before that I have their collars. Every now and then I'll bring them all out and speak to them. I'll tell them what's going on in my life and I'll ask how they are and if they are able to hear me. I'll say that I miss them and I usually always cry or feel intense sadness. It's important for me to hold each one to connect with the energy.

Everyone thinks I'm nuts or a crazy cat man but I can't help it.