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popmol · 22-25, M
@Iwillwait i have mcdd, which is a combo of autism and shizophrenia, i have hypersensitivity. so everytime i get home from any place my head is so overwhelmed i often have to just sit there for an hour up to 3 at least to calm down, then its not fixed but i can just start doing things.
my head is always into overdrive, yet i can't think and hold focus. the hypersensitivity makes me constantly be itchy because my own hairs tickle me.
i can't stand smells because of the hypersensitivity. where i have to vomit, from smokers or parfume. even flowers have to strong of a smell.
i have hyperflexibility, but not to a fun degree, can't do cool tricks! just enough that i always go over the limit so i hurt my body.
add to that an all loving nature where i want everyone to be happy and help everyone with a cynical view of the world due to relentless bullying and seeing worlds problems, making my brain constantly fight against my nature vs my ideas.
on top of that a depression hat i have yet to find a antidepressant that works.
The problem is i can't stand pain, so it tough for me to kill myself, its also hard to bring myself over the edge of killing myself.
but now that i have a job its nice to have money but also i'm stuck with racists sexists and every ism as colleagues so i already feel burned out so i think it will get only worse and jsut not want to get out of bed!
my head is always into overdrive, yet i can't think and hold focus. the hypersensitivity makes me constantly be itchy because my own hairs tickle me.
i can't stand smells because of the hypersensitivity. where i have to vomit, from smokers or parfume. even flowers have to strong of a smell.
i have hyperflexibility, but not to a fun degree, can't do cool tricks! just enough that i always go over the limit so i hurt my body.
add to that an all loving nature where i want everyone to be happy and help everyone with a cynical view of the world due to relentless bullying and seeing worlds problems, making my brain constantly fight against my nature vs my ideas.
on top of that a depression hat i have yet to find a antidepressant that works.
The problem is i can't stand pain, so it tough for me to kill myself, its also hard to bring myself over the edge of killing myself.
but now that i have a job its nice to have money but also i'm stuck with racists sexists and every ism as colleagues so i already feel burned out so i think it will get only worse and jsut not want to get out of bed!
popmol · 22-25, M
@Iwillwait well i'm a foodie, so i love the smells, but that's only if i like it, there's these things called poke bowl, which is rice and stuff together, modern western japanese food or hawaiian food.
i asked for a wrap because i though rice and chicken in a wrap is nice.
but instead of a wrap it was seaweed, AND IT REEEKED!
the same with flowers, my mother gained a bouquet and it smelled up the whole house, even a gym bag, smelling of sweat, in the gym, i opened the locker after i was done, and it still smelled as the flowers! its insane.
Also the worsta re smokers, one on the other side of the street and i'll smell it through the entire street!
i asked for a wrap because i though rice and chicken in a wrap is nice.
but instead of a wrap it was seaweed, AND IT REEEKED!
the same with flowers, my mother gained a bouquet and it smelled up the whole house, even a gym bag, smelling of sweat, in the gym, i opened the locker after i was done, and it still smelled as the flowers! its insane.
Also the worsta re smokers, one on the other side of the street and i'll smell it through the entire street!