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SimplyLogicalDiscipline · 36-40, F
popmol · 26-30, M
@SimplyLogicalDiscipline bullied my entire youth until became bitter constantly having an internal struggle between self hatred and hatred towards others conflicting with my caring nature and want for everyone to be happy.
my autism bad concentration depression my broken brain influenced by bad thoughts, bad antidepressants and antipsychotics left me unable to use my brain like it used to.
so now i'm almost 25, i only have highschool diploma, i can't be in a college as i get severe panic attacks that manifest in me as i was on fire and i had to tear of my own burning skin whilst escape the place with all the people to find some dark corner for shelter.
my brain is a complete mess.
even with my healthier eating sleeping and workout habits it does not seem to get much better.
so soon i'm a quarter of a century old with nothing to show for it and unlikely future.
no happy girlfriend, no job i like, no studies, no little house i can enjoy the rest of my life in.
and even if i somehow get them in the rest of my life is it worth to maybe struggle to get my dreams fulfilled to then look back and think, 30 40 50 or maybe even more years wasted to get to this point.
my autism bad concentration depression my broken brain influenced by bad thoughts, bad antidepressants and antipsychotics left me unable to use my brain like it used to.
so now i'm almost 25, i only have highschool diploma, i can't be in a college as i get severe panic attacks that manifest in me as i was on fire and i had to tear of my own burning skin whilst escape the place with all the people to find some dark corner for shelter.
my brain is a complete mess.
even with my healthier eating sleeping and workout habits it does not seem to get much better.
so soon i'm a quarter of a century old with nothing to show for it and unlikely future.
no happy girlfriend, no job i like, no studies, no little house i can enjoy the rest of my life in.
and even if i somehow get them in the rest of my life is it worth to maybe struggle to get my dreams fulfilled to then look back and think, 30 40 50 or maybe even more years wasted to get to this point.
SimplyLogicalDiscipline · 36-40, F
@popmol 25 is really young age so don't think that quater of your life is wasted, with your eating sleeping and workouts you won't see any changes because it is happening at a really slow pace,never loose hopes as even though there isn't significant changes but I am sure it's getting better, try meditation and it will help.
popmol · 26-30, M
@SimplyLogicalDiscipline Ooh dear! I left the raging storm speechless?
you don't know why you are the last person to mind someone's self expression?
you don't know why you are the last person to mind someone's self expression?