Free of everything of all obligations
All cruelty, coercion, pressure, everything.
Never again.
Never again will I compromise my sanity for others.
My mental health for others.
For no one.
I will support you to the point of my sanity.
I will be kind to you up to that point.
I will go so far to the horizon of irrationality to be there for everyone I love.
Every single time
Every single time.
But I will not cross that line for you ever again.
And if you ever loved me you would never have let me go that far.
Not only did you let me get close, not only did you see me approach the line boundary….. but you pushed me so hard over it. And then it still wasn’t enough. Me losing my mind to keep yours wasn’t enough.
I can’t do that again.
I can’t and I won’t.
The silver lining.
I know my strength now. I know I can be strong for the people I love. I can go so far for them. And maybe if I choose I will cross that boundary for them.
But I get to choose that not you.
Never again.
Never again will I compromise my sanity for others.
My mental health for others.
For no one.
I will support you to the point of my sanity.
I will be kind to you up to that point.
I will go so far to the horizon of irrationality to be there for everyone I love.
Every single time
Every single time.
But I will not cross that line for you ever again.
And if you ever loved me you would never have let me go that far.
Not only did you let me get close, not only did you see me approach the line boundary….. but you pushed me so hard over it. And then it still wasn’t enough. Me losing my mind to keep yours wasn’t enough.
I can’t do that again.
I can’t and I won’t.
The silver lining.
I know my strength now. I know I can be strong for the people I love. I can go so far for them. And maybe if I choose I will cross that boundary for them.
But I get to choose that not you.
