I've been slowly drawing back from the internet, since there's nothing good anymore. I haven't been social, I've becoming more socially dead.

I think it's maybe the alcohol or it's just me seeing everything is dead. should I give up in life? probably not, even though life is dead to me anyways. I don't want to be this way, but I have no control of reality as it spins. I don't even know who I am anymore as life continues to change. I probably wouldn't care who I am anyways. The human mind is fake to me.