Somethings wrong with me because why am I trying to start a fight and push Cowboy away right before the wedding?!

I figured it out.. I think I’m scared to be too happy because of things from the past (not with cowboy) once I let myself be too happy I’ll set myself up to get my heart broken

You’re stressed and he’s safe to take it out on. Everything is going to be okay.

Because you are indeed self sabotaging. But it's good you recognize it. Now you can work in it.

coz it's scary as heck to know you're getting married

you're stressed

but you'll chill in a little bit

Nothing is wrong with you. Pre wedding jitters. Maybe?

Stop.