I drove to see my childhood home last night because I was in town and I got sad and mad. I should still be there

A few years ago it was lost to foreclosure and we were forced to move into the apartment we all hate. I was in town visiting a friend and decided to drive by at night. I saw the glow of q tv from the front room and could kinda see in. I was mad because that should be me watching tv in there not whoever lives there now. I was also sad and got depressed for the same reason. I used to feel welcome and knew I could always be on those grounds but now I feel like I couldn't even touch the grass.

Love how the landscaping and plants are the same as when we lived there. The same landscaping block my dad put in before he died. I wonder if the same planters he built are still in the back. The fence he built still stands.