Is it normal to walk into a store, want to get something, but just walk out instead?

I feel like people are crowding in on my personal space, even when they are not and I am always worried that I'm in someone's way which makes me feel like I have to rush which makes me more anxious and then I end up picking the wrong present and going around and around in circles because I can't find what I want and I wanted to make buy cards and now my peas are melting and I planned to only spend €50, but I've already got€70 of presents and I still haven't found the thing I wanted and will I have enough?
And then when I finally go to check out, I feel like the cashier is silently judging me. Like "Cards? Really? Who do you have to give cards to? And do you think they will like your present?"
Most times, I walk out after walking around in circles and walking into people, but today my brother shook my shoulders and told me not to worry, that he was there and wouldn't let anything happen to me and I felt brave.

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Nelladell · 80-89, F

I remember, believe it or not, being your age. It can be super scary. Some day, though, you will get to know a brother you don't now that you have. Then you can always feel brave. Not pie in the sky because he's already living in your heart -- just waiting. You will find that you are way more wonderful than you can think.

Manfredthemanic · 16-17, M

@Nelladell Yes, being fourteen is not very fun a lot of the time.
What brother? I already have one and he is very cool and makes me feel better about everything, even when no one else can. I still have anxiety, but he knows what to say and do. Or do you mean God?

Nelladell · 80-89, F

@Manfredthemanic I mean the bravery and smarts and fun you will discover in your heart when you are older and learn to be very quiet inside yourself and feel what's going on in your heart. You can feel it as a brother or friend or God. The wonderful part of you. Right inside. You will be so happy you found it.

Manfredthemanic · 16-17, M

@Nelladell I hope I find that part soon, because most of the time I think I'm terrible or weird.

Nelladell · 80-89, F

@Manfredthemanic Of course you are not terrible. And Inow you know that you are brave. You will find that it will help you if you think as often as possible about when your brother shook you and you felt brave. Many folks, when they want to think of something often, write notes to themselves. In your case, your note would read something like, "I am brave." Now you kmow that you are. You know, being brave is doing something, even if it's scary. If you don't want others reading your notes, you might just put a B on pieces of paper. One on computer, one on mirror, etc. Now you know you are brave. Now I know you are brave. Because you told me so. And yes. You are weird. I am weird. We don't want to be average. We want to be weird.

Manfredthemanic · 16-17, M

@Nelladell That made me laugh. 🙈 Yes, I would like to be weird forever as well. But I can still feel a little sad when people make fun of me.

Nelladell · 80-89, F

@Manfredthemanic Well, sure it does. Lots of things make us sad. And it's not fair. But that's the wayu it is. But the sadness isn't us. It isn't you. You are brave.