I Want to Be Positive About Life

I want to be positive and maybe I pressure myself too much. I'm having a hard time. Lately, my husband's symptoms have been getting to me. I know he cannot help it and it makes me feel helpless that I cannot seem to help make it easier on him.


Sometimes I just need to get away. Just for a few hours. Today I did that with my son. We went out for a few hours.


But then upon arriving home the weight of it all was just waiting for my return. I had to rush back out to get some things at the store and sat in the parking lot sobbing. I just couldn't stop crying.... and then looking for a napkin to clean my face and blow my nose I couldn't find ONE STINKING NAPKIN!!!!


Well, I used one of them vehicle dash cleaning wipes.... sure it was wet and full of chemicals...but I needed to get myself looking near normal before scaring all the other customers. :'(


I want to be positive but sometimes things just get to be too much and feeling negative makes me feel guilty. It's a vicious cycle.