I Am Trying to Find Happiness

I've been searching for happiness for quite sometime. I get so close to grasping what I truly want only to watch it slip away. Only to be left more questions than before. I've been suddenly left behind with no real reason as to why. My latest so called relationship I had to walk away. He has no idea what he truly wants and I'm certain it's not me. Although he claims I'm his best friend. I fail to understand why I keep attracting so much uncertainty when all I want is to live simply, be happy and not alone in this world. Happiness is knowing where you stand with someone. Trusting them to show up and be a part of your life. Being loyal and faithful. Is it really that hard to love... To be truly happy? I guess so.