I Am Trying to Find Happiness

I've been searching for happiness for quite sometime. I get so close to grasping what I truly want only to watch it slip away. Only to be left more questions than before. I've been suddenly left behind with no real reason as to why. My latest so called relationship I had to walk away. He has no idea what he truly wants and I'm certain it's not me. Although he claims I'm his best friend. I fail to understand why I keep attracting so much uncertainty when all I want is to live simply, be happy and not alone in this world. Happiness is knowing where you stand with someone. Trusting them to show up and be a part of your life. Being loyal and faithful. Is it really that hard to love... To be truly happy? I guess so.

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PoetryNEmotion · F

I think it is something that nearly each of us desire: to be loved and to be with someone who loves us, hopefully forever. As we become older, the number of available people lessens. And many people are filled with doubts, uncertainty, and baggage. Living simply is easy. Being happy is something that one develops and that comes from inside. Not from outside. The qualities you seek in a mate seem to be reasonable. I can only suggest to keep looking, stick to your standards, and try to be optimistic. Finding a suitable love can take a long time. Sounds like your head is on straight, girl. Develop yourself and he should come along when it is right. Good luck.

Wildflower00 · 51-55, F

Thank you... I will continue to work on me and be happy with myself. It just gets hard sometimes. Then I get caught up in my own head.

PoetryNEmotion · F

@Wildflower00: It took me 2 years after I left an unhappy marriage of 3 decades, Wildflower, to find the love of my life. I knew I would find him on-line, but I was on EP, not on the right site. It is never too late. So do not over-think or fret too much. You deserve the best love. I know it is hard on you, but you do not want to settle. You are most welcome. :)