I Am Trying to Find Happiness

I've been searching for happiness for quite sometime. I get so close to grasping what I truly want only to watch it slip away. Only to be left more questions than before. I've been suddenly left behind with no real reason as to why. My latest so called relationship I had to walk away. He has no idea what he truly wants and I'm certain it's not me. Although he claims I'm his best friend. I fail to understand why I keep attracting so much uncertainty when all I want is to live simply, be happy and not alone in this world. Happiness is knowing where you stand with someone. Trusting them to show up and be a part of your life. Being loyal and faithful. Is it really that hard to love... To be truly happy? I guess so.

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RainBisou · F

I use to think love was easy, you know when I was younger and knew everything. Now, I know it is not easy and I think sometimes its a matter of chance. So sorry your going through this, do hope it doesnt last long. On a side note, I read this somewhere, don't put the key to your happiness in someone else's pocket. Best wishes to you, sweetie.

Wildflower00 · 51-55, F

There is nothing easy about it. I understand when you are young it looks and maybe it was so easy to move on. Unfortunately for me not this time. Thank you for words. It helps to know I'm not entirely alone.

RainBisou · F

@Wildflower00: definitely not alone my friend, I would venture 90% of people are looking for it. Hugs.

Wildflower00 · 51-55, F

Thank you... I hope we all find what ever it is we desire. :)