@Morrigan It's also historically been seen as selfish with almost everyone I've come into contact with, when I even express my own needs. I think this is because either the focus is not on the needs of the other person or could potentially require shared responsibility. My expression of my own needs has only been met with anomositiy, anger, and insults. I think I have an understanding of the expectations due to the consistency. I appreciate your support of me as a person and send you love for that. But this has been my reality throughout my life. It's not worth fighting for or holding on to what is important to me anymore. So I'm just facilitating the needs of others and trying to survive the reality that I now clearly understand.