I Envy Others Happiness
As if depression isn’t hard enough to cope with. I’m still having such a hard time trying to adjust to being on my own.
I got married and had my kids in my 20’s. My eldest is now 15 but all my friends are buying houses, getting married and having babies. They are all in that exciting part where all the fun is still ahead. I just can’t muster the energy to be happy for them. My older friends keep posting about their 20th, 30th anniversaries etc. I feel such an overwhelming saddness for how empty my life feels and so jealous that they have what I want so desperately.
No matter what was going on in my life, I’ve always found joy in my friends’ achievements. Now it’s like some weird ass paranoia that they’re only doing these things to spite me. It’s insane and I hate feeling this way. I’ve never been the jealous type before. How the hell do I stop it?
I got married and had my kids in my 20’s. My eldest is now 15 but all my friends are buying houses, getting married and having babies. They are all in that exciting part where all the fun is still ahead. I just can’t muster the energy to be happy for them. My older friends keep posting about their 20th, 30th anniversaries etc. I feel such an overwhelming saddness for how empty my life feels and so jealous that they have what I want so desperately.
No matter what was going on in my life, I’ve always found joy in my friends’ achievements. Now it’s like some weird ass paranoia that they’re only doing these things to spite me. It’s insane and I hate feeling this way. I’ve never been the jealous type before. How the hell do I stop it?
