I am grateful for having a conscience and the ability to face it.

Guilt is difficult to struggle with, but it is also very purposeful. I am mean and occasionally detached. It mellows it down, helps me at damage control and to change my behaviours eventually basing them on consequences over past justifications.

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Rokan · 31-35, M

Ive struggled with good and bad a lot. Sometimes i like to do things that are bad but then i feel bad. Sometimes i cringe at good things. Its almost like there is war inside me and i was built for war, but on the otherside it breaks my heart to see anything suffer. There is also a kind of loneliness in me that comes and goes and it makes me want to go too.

Miram · 31-35, F

@Rokan I think evolution dictates the existence inner conflicts and forces. There is no escape.

Rokan · 31-35, M

@Miram then peace can only be obtained one way

Miram · 31-35, F

@Rokan Not really peace. It is just easier to look at it as peace.

When we die, all chance to actually contribute to the right forces to triumph ceases. It is the death of both; peace and conflict. Not just conflict.

Think of it this way instead; feeding the right wolf and all of that native american wisdom.

Rokan · 31-35, M

@Miram i don't see when we die as death. I don't know if we have a soul or what happens to that. I know i have my beliefs, but as far as the body goes nothing can kill that. Everything in existance is energy and energy can't die it can only change properties. No matter what happens to me ill always infest this world.

Miram · 31-35, F

@Rokan Yes, that is why I don't think of it as a peace. We will always both infest and benefit the world. We have little control how we tip the scale. In our death we can also strive for goodness. And death will happen regardless, which means no point in justifying going to it willingly.

Rokan · 31-35, M

@Miram i cant fight nature but i wont ket man take me out without fight