It's been a while

Work has been busy, painting tiny tanks and men has been time consuming although not especially difficult (although my hand's currently sore from holding a brush trying to get the tracks done), and I'm tired all the time. I've probably lost the only friend group I've ever truly fitted in with, and I'm holding on through sheer momentum alone.

It'd be nice if everything just stopped forever, but I'm not feeling actually suicidal any more which is good. I'm still lonely though, but that will end whenever it happens.

Bye.