I DID IT! I DID IT ! THE DAY I ACHIEVED MY FIRST ACCOMPLISHMENT . DEFEATED YEARS OF ANXIETY AND PROCRASTINATION AND STARTED POSITIVE SELF TALK

Yess the dreaded work I had been postponing for weeks , I did it . Finally. I was ao scared so so scared. It was a resume making task for my upcoming interns but since I do not have much things to offer , i was so scared .

I asked my friend to help me . And this was again so scary because I thought that she would hate me or find me pathetic but man it felt so easy and nice . She was so supportive.

And I am feeling at ease .later I had a online meet with my friends which slightly drained me because I went back to my old thought patterns of comparing myself and picking out my flaws starting with my acne .

But I am so relieved that I did it. I was so afraid and terrorised by this. I am proud of my work today.
•I am so proud of myself that I did this without degrading me mentally.
•I am so proud of myself that I broke my tasks into multiple small tasks and did them in parts .
•I am so proud of myself that I seeked help . Yes I am proud to call her and asked if she can help me.
•I am so proud to not compare myself to her and think that I am better than her or She is better than me .
• I am proud to say that I love her deeply and with a free unshackled heart and wish her good health and success.
•I am proud of myself to admit that today I felt and I am feeling that things are spiralling a little out of control. I am comparing myself and specifically my acne riddled skin with her skin and at the same time thinking negative things about my self .
But I say to myself - My only focus is what I am doing. What I am learning. And how I am healing Today. Acne will come and go. Today they are worse . Tomorrow it will be better. Bad skin should not define the mental state of my beautiful mind . My mind is a safe place. It is a safe beautiful place that is independent of how I look , how my skin looks , how my body looks. My mind is my safe place, my sweet home that would still make me happy and feel loved when my skin will have wrinkles. And this will get better. My skin will get better. And with or without this flawless skin, I am still beautiful and enough.
I am enough. My body is enough. My skin is enough. My mind is enough . And I am thankful for all of them .thank you.