Have you ever held a gun?

I did once when I was a teen. I thought it was tough and decided to jump and rob the local drug dealer. We had numbers on our side and honestly none of us imagined it could’ve ended that bad, I look back and realise how bad it coulda been now, someone coulda died. But we did it anyway. It got physical between him and an older friend of ours and I seen he had it tucked in the back of his pants and I grabbed it out and ran off with it. I kept it for a few days but I got scared so I walked past his house and threw it into his back garden. I didn’t see him again after that night for a long time and I’m glad I didn’t, by time he seen me again he either forgot or didn’t recognise me