Anger+Pain......

Right now, I’m just looking for reasons to hate you…
So I don’t have to love you…
So I don’t have to feel this pain anymore.
But by all accounts, you were a pure-hearted person caught up in darkness.

I’m not just crying because you’re gone...in fact…
But because of how long you suffered.
Your illness may have taken your body hostage…
But your beauty remains intact.

Pretty soon, a new day will begin with you no longer in it.
I can’t believe it’s already been a week, and this grief never lessens.
The world needs you down here, but maybe you’re truly in a better place.

Sometimes I think about joining you because we both feel like diamonds..
People discarded because they used up their shine.

I don’t really want the sun to rise.
It means it rises without you under the blue sky.
I prefer to be surrounded by the night.
That way, I’m shrouded from the reality that you’re not coming back