I Like To Write Poetry

I held fast to a lie
Because it was all I had.
It spun around my little broken heart and it loved with all it was.
A very little girls hands reaching to be held...
I held fast .
I believed when my soul kept screaming
Purple all around me..
Black.
He raped me because I loved him then threw me away.
Easier to lie and make me garbage in his mind
Than to hold me back..
To love me back.
Love is too difficult..?
I was never taught love only rape and pain.
I was never taught loyalty.
I was an open feral wound.
Yet I loved him with all my heart.
And I am still loyal..
Still sitting here alone crying
Because I love him