I Write Pretty Crappy Dark Poetry

Indeed.(: Well, here's a thing....its good for You to give an outlet to Your feelings . It's great, but You should struggle towards the light and away from the light And to do that, it's easy(because happiness is Your normal state)! After a while.
You have to believe,..that You can be happy and You have to do soul searching(find out what's wrong, what You need, how to make things better),
make a plan of action(How You are going to make things okay) and You have to then fanatically ACT no matter How you feel,
When You act and beat Your urges(urges to act contrary to what You have planned to do will come, that's okay. Beating those urges will make You stronger and make doing the right thing easier) , You will start to feel better....keep up for a long time, with professional help, friends, self love, and You will crawl out of darkness. Just do what You know is RIGHT, and avoid what You think is wrong, or not good for You..And work hard for Yourself, like studies and so on, take pain to build Yourself up and You will feel better.

Also, A tip. What You surround Yourself with affects how You feel, if You surround Yourself with dark people, dark thoughts, Dark and desolate user name...You will feel that way, surround with happier lighter things and You are affected to feel that way. Example- when You watch a good horror movie ,it leaves You feeling scared even after it's over! Sad songs and things do that too.
Do not give in To despair and let life abuse You, be in the fighting mood consistently and You will feel better.

You have to NOT hate Yourself, or judge Yourself. You have to judge Your thoughts and attitudes and perspectives to different things and change them to a way that will make You happy.
Love ....and live in the solutions part of the problem, rather than the pain part.
Indeed, it is the best of us that have the worst problems...these are to help Us realise who we are when we beat them and to make us stronger. Fulfilling Your purpose as a spiritual being living a human life will make You happy.

What is Your purpose? Well that is for You to find out. It's part of Your purpose.

You can tell me anything.