Thank You for the Abandonment

Thank you for the silence,
The way you vanished behind the fog of your comfort,
Leaving me in a place where truth finally echoed louder
Than my desperate attempts to repaint your loyalty.

You taught me how little I meant
When I tried to be your everything.
Even the prettiest colors couldn’t stick
To a wall that was already failing.

Thank you for the mirror,
For reflecting the fragility of the bonds I called friendship.
They broke with ease, like glass in winter
Shattered the moment I pushed you away.

Thank you for the cold shoulder,
When all I asked was balance.
you wanting to be my child, while I was reaching for a lover
But I see now, I reached into an empty void.

You taught me that giving without return
Isn’t love.
It’s blindness.
And for that painful clarity, I thank you.

Thank you for the flicker of honor
In your otherwise hollow exit.
At least a fraction returned was enough
To remind me I gave far too much.

Yes, I own my part—
I lingered too long in a place already burnt,
Hoping ashes might bloom again.
But they never do.

Thank you for waking me up,
For reminding me what I don’t want,
For stirring the voice in me that whispered:
“You deserve more.”

Despite the abandonment,
Despite the betrayal and the echo of shame—
I see you.
A flawed soul doing your best, just like I was.

So I close this chapter without hate.
Only reverence for the fire I walked through,
And respect for the lesson you became.

Thank you
For letting me leave.
It taught me how to stay...
Forever with myself.