My autumnal poem . Whatever.

I watch autumn leaves fall ..

Slowly
. So beautiful and so deceptive...
One last kiss
and soon everything will be dead
And frozen.
I wonder if I can survive another winter.

A flock of birds fly overhead
in a heart formation
In the grayest sky I have ever seen.
A sign
or maybe they know the reason
my eyes are so sad today.
Questions I ask
as I move quickly
Why does it hurt so much to feel?
Am I the monster in my own story? A leaf falls...
As red as my hair and my heart...
. And the blood in my veins.
Soon everything will be dead.