You were looking at me while I was counting stars and you were only counting dollars

When I was searching for meaning
You were only searching for ways to decieve me
I was trying to grow but the world only felt cold
I was looking for love while losing me
How could you, Why would you
How could the stars decieve
I just wanted to dream
I just wanted to bleed
While forgetting everything
Nothing meaning nothing after all
And even the smallest of things must fall
Wishing upon every star like a child
Only brings tears to a grown man's eyes
and nobody wants to see a grown man cry
but they will watch him lose it all
Lose his mind forget to call
Lose track of time and grow old
You fcked with me and I never did like that
So I say fck the world and turn my back
And all I hear is How could you, Why would you
So f you for all the sht that's happened to me
and I don't need to say this subliminally
any misfortune that comes to you
rest assured it came from me
And if you resent that it's only
because you represent that