Fuck me...

No bra,
Mini skirt,
Let me jiggle a little
So you can see me
Cause Right now I'm so numb
I'm not even sure I'm really here

But that's not what you want to hear

Fuck me

Doggie style
So I don't have to see your face
Just close my eyes
Focus on you slamming into me
So I can lose focus of this heartache
Chasing cum to stave off
another heart break

Fuck me

Fuck me harder
My heart still hurts...
Fuck me harder
It's still not working
Choke me a little

Ah, there we go
Sweet release
Dopamine flowing
So at ease

Untill the day breaks
Alone in my bed
With these thoughts in my head
Anxiety creeps
Come back

Fuck me

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ServantOfTheGoddess · 61-69, M

Thank you for sharing this. It is well written and so intense. If it is about you I hope you will find healing.

MizzO · 31-35, F

@ServantOfTheGoddess I don't act out in this way any more but sometimes when I'm sad or angry, nights like tonight, the feelings come back. Writing helps a bit.

ServantOfTheGoddess · 61-69, M

@MizzO I admire your strength and courage. And you are a talented writer.

Your poem also makes me wonder whether I have ever taken advantage of someone's needs and hurt, without meaning to. If someone was saying to me "fuck me" would I have the sensitivity to understand why? That it might not be about desire or pleasure? I don't know.

MizzO · 31-35, F

@ServantOfTheGoddess a good to tell is to delay. And if your having conversations that mY lead in that direction just ask about their day and ask take interest in the details of their day. A sex addict of my kind likes to be vague and deflect and just hurt to get to business because those emotions are just beneath the surface. And rather than talk specifically I might seem all of a sudden disinterested or irritated at your probing questions.....

I hope this wasn't a silly reply but it's not okay to be used or use people even if it is to cover up pain or hurt

ServantOfTheGoddess · 61-69, M

@MizzO This is a very helpful reply. You are making me really think about my own relationships and sexual encounters, and wanting to be more careful. I hope other people are thinking about this too as they read your words.